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kyttenjanae:

the paragon of the animals//

kyttenjanae:

the paragon of the animals//

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Ben Minard

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“1. I loved you more than the entire world and you didn’t give a shit about me. That hurts more than I could ever hate myself.
2. Swallowing those pills didn’t kill me, just left me with a terrible taste in my mouth and made me nauseous. I threw it all up a few hours later, then went on with my life the following day as if nothing had happened.
3. I don’t ever want to smoke. I don’t appreciate when people romanticize cigarettes, they just ruin your insides. I guess I shouldn’t romanticize you either, because you did the exact same thing.
4. I memorized the things you said each time you talked to me and I haven’t been able to go to sleep because I replay and over analyze it in my head.
5. I started breathing for someone else, when I had my own lungs. I had enough oxygen to fuel myself. Now I am left alone and I have to learn to survive off my own organs.
6. I never loved myself until you touched me. I used to think that you had some kind of magic and I was on a spell. It wore off after a while. Not even you could make me love myself. 7. My parents spent their entire lives trying to protect me from everything but myself. I wrecked myself. I made myself this way.
8. I always loved others too hard, too deeply, too needlessly. Sometimes it’s okay to be selfish. Sometimes it okay to put yourself first.
9. I was never able to say your name without feeling nauseous. I started vomiting all the butterflies out of my stomach. I still feel myself shaking when someone brings you up.
10. The first time I fell in love, it wasn’t with myself. I think that’s what made you so special, because I was able to love you when I couldn’t even love myself.
11. I let myself be sad, I found comfort in my sadness. I thought I could stop being sad when I was ready, but it was so hard to not be sad. It was so difficult to stop being sad. Sometimes I feel myself becoming sad again, and it terrifies me. Because I got through it once but I never really got through it entirely.
12. Sometimes I wonder how everything would have turned out if that one thing hadn’t happened, and then I start beating myself up and asking myself how I could’ve let it happen. What I have realized is that I cannot change the past, and I’m trying to be okay with that.
13. I woke up one day and it stopped hurting, just like that. Your day will come too. It will stop bothering you as much as it used to.”

—   M.O.W, Experiences and realizations that have made me who I am today (via imwritingpoems)

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